Yeah here we go for the 100th time,
Hand grenade pins in every lines,
Throw em up let something shine,
Going out of my fucking mind!!
Hahahha!This is my 100th blog post here on HBlogK ladies and gentlement! Cant believe that I actually reached this "milestone" after creating this place where loath everything out around 1 year ago.Bangge bangge! Dh banyak gak bnde merapu I posted here kan?? Im able to reached 100, x mcm orang tu kan, buat blog, post 4 topics, then delete the blog, then create another one, mmg x smpi 100 la kan =p Ahahahah Ok since this my 100th post, I should post something really great, meaningful, and special. So with that in mind, I think for my 100th post, I will write something about this one very very special girl.
Im currently studying ACCA in UiTM, and to be honest, I dont really enjoy doing it. It has been like that for the past 2 and a half years. I think accountancy is a very boring dreadful subject, and Im not very keen with UiTM. So I really dont enjoy my time there and also had to come to class every day. So how did I managed to survive, withstand, pushed my self to go to class day in day out for the last 4 semesters? I think , it is all because of this one very special person in my life...
She, has been the number one reason I was willing to come to UiTM everyday, day in , day out, for the last 4 semester . Everytime I feel tired, or bored, or just dont have the willingness to go to class , she has been the reason I pushed my self to still go to class,so that I could hear her cute "shy" manje voice again, so that I could see her "onion rings" hair once again, so that I could discover "oh today farah n me pki same colour =D ", and so that I could see her face one more time. When I could do all that, all the tiredness or bored-ness of having to go to class just go away, and it was all worth it. Eventhough I could only admire her from distance, and see her around some other guy, and eventhough the very thought of it really burned in me, it didnt mater, because in a way, I didnt mind hurting my self, for what seemed to be a one sided feeling.
A lot have happened along the way since my 1st sem with her till now, some are funny, some are embarassing,but most are self hurting. Fast forward till today, thing have changed a bit, and I have a sort of 'moderate' chance to be with her, but nothing is certain.Im afraid that I might lose her, afraid that she might lost interest in me, but most all afraid that I cant make her happy and satisfy her.
For years Ive been searching for the definition of the word 'love'. I read alot of articles, asked a lot of people, and watched a lot of merepek love movies, but none of the meanings of the word 'love' really satisfied me. I still didnt know the meaning of the word, untill recently.I think only now I understand the meaning of the word, and to me, my description of the word love, is you, Farah Hafizah.You are my definition of love. You are my love. If anyone were to ask ask me what is love, I would answer "Farah". So thank you for teaching me the meaning of the word love, to make me feel how it is like to be on love, and to be loved.
2 years ago you were my eye candy.
1 year ago you were my main reason continuing study in UiTM.
Now, you are my fav girl,you are my life,you are my world,you are my everything.
Thats why Im ignoring all those 'rumours'
Thats why I never get mad at you.
Thats why I dont mind missing football (for wht before this means a lot to me)
Thats why I accept you regardless of you 'bad'past
Thats why I dont mind waiting forever for you.
Thats why I dont mind changing my self for you.
Because right now,it is safe to say,without any doubt, honestly,
I love you Farah.